Why Stress???

Why stress??? LOL. That is what i always say. Today i just have our maths test and one of my friends did a small little mistake that make the whole answer wrong. He was so tension. SO TENSION. I was sitting beside him when the test is going and guess what, i don't even know what the question is talking and he was like writing so fast and i am quite sure that he will get it right as he is the smartest in my class. What happened is he got it wrong in the beginning and he was very upset about it and keeps on blaming himself. I try to calm him down but he said,"Don't disturb me!!". I was smiling and trying to make him to smile too and he scolded me. WTF. After that, he keep on talking about the mistake he made and he is quite emotional too. On the other side, another guy was sitting beside me and telling me that he know how to do and do it perfectly correct. Imagine you don't even understand the question and the guy was showing you his big smile and i feel like giving him a big slap on his balls to tell him that :: Hey!!! Stop showing off in front me or i will hit you with my fist. Then after 5 minutes only the guy beside realized that he had done something wrong. WAKAKA.

AFter that, we went on to the drawing test. It was kinda hard as we are drawing using a computer and it may look easy to you but when you try it, you will know its toughness and difficulty. So, the teacher gave us the question and when we are 15 minutes into the test, all computer shut down. WTF. All the students are shouting and scolding. I was relieved. You know why? Because i don't know how to draw and was asking my friends about it. It was not that hard after all. After the computer restart, we start all over again. All my friends were busy drawing and they draw very fast. Guess what, I was stuck at drawing the model and it did wasted alot of my time. DAMN. They are all drawing other stuff already and i was stuck there for half an hour. After finish drawing the model, our teacher say we are left with less than half an hour. OMG. I was like clicking the mouse here and there faster than the speed of a running rabbit. LOL. I did not finish the drawing. Too bad. Gonna fail again. LOL. The 'showing off' guy finish his drawing and ask me whether i finish o not and i told him,"Nah,don't know how to do." He is still smiling at the moment and say,"Don't pretend man,let me see your drawing." So, i showed it to him and he said it is good. When he said the word "GOOD", i feel like pushing him down to the floor and punch him. I looked at his and WTF, he finished it and ask me just to laugh at me and say i was pretending? I ain't pretending you sucker and i will remember the moment when you laugh and say my drawing is "GOOD". DAMN. It's like someone is laughing at you indirectly. Pretending? FUCK you. When he finished the things fast and he get it correctly, he will always put both of his hands up in the air and smile. Beside him is me still trying to figure out the question. Although i don't really like his attitude,somehow he is still my friend so what to do, tolerate lo...

ALways and Always

Things might have changed these few years. I looked back and realized that i have done terribly lot of mistakes that cannot be fix eventhough i can turn back the clock. It's hard to believe that i can reach this level with this kind of attitude. It's terrible of me to bring forward that attitude until now and it's still there. For this long time, i haven't manage to change my attitude of lazyness and lying to myself all the time about the truth that has long been there, never changed,never fade and never disappear. I did not do what must be done and this is very disappointing not ony for my family,my friends and all around me. I have many times remind myself of the things that have to be changed and yet i neglect it just after seconds i reminded myself. How can i make such a mistake? There is no turning back and i knew the ending long before it happens. Is it my choice that makes me what i am today? Perhaps. I am still asking myself whether i am in the right place,doing the right thing and the thing is i always think that i am right all the time. It's all assumption. It's just hypothesis. It's probably a guess. WILD guess. So what can i do about it? It is still not late to change. I know that . U know that. We all know that.

The question is : Can i change now? Will i change? Must i change? What if i choose not to change? What will happen? Where will i stand? My future? My dream? Noone knows. It's all up to oneself. That is me. Change. It's always easy to say than to do it. One thing. Believe. I have seen motivational videos,movies, listened to talks, seen the successful people,heard their stories and yet i am still the same old me. Unchanged. Unpolished. Immature. Ineffective. Unproductive. Why? Because i have no confident in myself. And being influenced by what people say about me. You are always like this. If you carry on with this attitude, i don't know how long can you stand. There are always a lot of doubts,questions that you want to get from yourself and yet you cannot answer yourself. Why? Because you are doubting yourself, your attitude, your personality,everything.

This is not the way you and me should live. Start to change. Think. Visualize. Imagine. Believing. Faith. Trust. Honesty. Forget about the old you. Start over again. U are a new person now. You are someone. Someone that can do so much things that other people cannot do. Believe in what you can achieve. Work for it. Go for it. Do something about it. Don't just believe and wait for the fruits to come. Everyone in this world work hard for what they have now, they don't just wish and sit there waiting. So,please go out there and work for what you want. Even now when i am writing this, i am still studying for my test tomorrow. Why i write it down? Because i may not remember this again in the future and this may be important for me and for you. I don't wanna lose it now. Never.

Although things may not seem to be going the right way , i am sure that things will go better soon. Trust. Don't be influenced by what people say about you. Mind about what you say about yourself. Most of the time, people tend to get influenced by what their friends say. So do you think that you can trust your friend more than yourself? If you think that that guy is efficient and have the leadership skills, vote for him. You don't change your mind because your friends say the other guy is better and more efficient. Look first. See for yourself. Then only make your decision. There are a lot mistakes that i have done and i knew i cannot turn back. But what can i do is i will always remind myself about the experience that i had and think three times before i make my decision. Once you have make the decision, there is no running away or hiding form it. It's your choice and you have to accept it no matter what the end results is. That is why i never regret about what i did(although i did regretted for some awful things i done in the past) now and i will always think,think and think.

Meaning

I am again closer into understanding love. I had seen people falling into love so fast and break up at the same speed too. Love is not easy as anyone thinks. It can start very fast and then it will be up to the both side of male and female to decide how to maintain the relationship or when to end the relationship. It can be very long or very short. There must be argument in this process as if there is no argument, there is no love at all. I have seen the guy overcontrolled the girl and what's gonna happen next, i am still waiting because this is a true story. I also have seen a pair of couples together for a long time and suddenly... Pufff. They break off in just seconds. The guy suggested and the girl suffers. It happens most of the time and the guys are always the one breaking the girl's heart. The girl may cry for weeks or maybe months yet the guy just take it as experience and take no action in talking to the girl. It's sad. There are also girls who are cheap. Don't you know? Have you seen a girl be with a guy for 2 weeks and after one week, she is with a new guy, more ugly than me. Can you imagine? The girl is good-looking yet the guy she is with is ugly. I am not saying that i am better than the guy but look at that girl. It's merely one week. And she is doing this. Damn. She is definitely a cheap bitch. I mean, BITCH.

Why that girl want to do that? Have you wonder? Maybe she is sick of guys breaking up with her in a short period of time and she get used to this short-relationship thingy. That is why she is doing this. But it may not always be the guy's fault. The girl may be the one breaking the guy's heart too. Have you seen girls breaking a guy's heart? Hmmm. Not often but yes. It do happen and when it happens, the guy is the one being hurt. Other than that, the girl maybe overemotional about what the guy is doing. Example, the guy is busy doing things(projects,assignments) with some other "pretty" girls and his girl saw that, she will be extremely jealous man. EXTREMELY. I am sure about this. Girl's jealousy is very strong in the sense that she cannot her man together with another girl for even half an hour. That is why. When the guy tries to explain, the girl will think that the guy is trying to cover his ass. So, what happens next? Break up of course. The girls will be crying and the guys will be begging. Yet, the girls give no chance to the guys to explain and in the end the guy gives up and the end of the story.

I am sure that you have seen many of this cases before. You may also experienced it before. It's just a share of stories. Many have been complaining to me about this matter and they are crying at the moment when they are telling me this. I wrote this down because i think it's an important thing that you should know. It may not be useful now but it will be in the future. If u think that u are already a pro in this, think again. Even i am still learning,watching and listening to people's stories and try to learn something from it. Hope you learn something too.

Long break and stress out....

It was a long break since i wrote my last post. Sorry guys and girls but i was very very busy recently due to exams and i slept very late at 4 or 6 in the morning and have to wake up at 7. Thats the worst week and cause me to take the consequences. My face was in very terrible condition until now and i am going to my uni tomorrow. Sad. Cut my hair. Cut all my hair. My mom. Forced. The hairstylist said sorry to me too cause he cut almost all of my hair. So sad. @.@. Yet i feel very sad at the starting but after few hours,i think it's time to change me. Change myself. The old me was lazy and sad. Now i shall transform.Konon. :D . This week holiday sucks. Nothing to do at the first weekend. Tutor to my little cousin. For 3 days and i got bored. So i stopped and went back home. REst for 2 days and went out with my old schoolmates to KLCC. Watched "Where got ghost" and "Gamer" . Gamer is a piece of shit and where got ghost is extremely hilarious. Went to watch G-force with my sister the next day that is today. Rated ok by me because i watched "up" before that and "up" is much better and touching than this G-force. So thats all for now. Tired. Eyes closing . Assignments are calling my name. Damn. Too bad. I am going to assignments only when i reach uni tomorrow. Tonight i wanna do nothing but online. Line in uni sucks. Real sucks.

First day back at school after 2 months BREAK!!!

Life don't suck, only you suck... I was back at the school today and guess what ... I had no room and have to sleep with Mr.Fu Ann. Zzz.. It was a boring day. REached at 3. Play basketball at 4. Saw a RaBbIT???... lol... Fu Ann call the RAbbIT ...(censored).... haha... Then later at night we went and had dinner outside and it was quite a good meal... FOR now... What happened next?... Bad things happened. A cat run and pissed in front of F.A's room and the 'liquid' TERtouched the broom beside the door and F.A used it to wipe his keyboard. And guess what.. He knew about it and he became the angriest man i ever seen on EArth. The whole block was tumbling because of his voice echoing around the block. Well that's all for now.. Because i haven't buy a cable to connect to my laptop so i cannot online after this ... F.A is calling me.. HE WANTS THE CABLE..>.<... See u all later.. b

Kellie's Trip

So we went to fetch my roomate yesterday. After fetching him,he asked that where we wanna go before going back and then someone just said,'Kellie's Castle'.(=.=') Fine. So,we drove to Kellie's castle and walked inside. Then,we realized that we have to pay to get in. So,we just paid and continued. These are all the pictures that we managed to get before leaving and it's not bad actually. Kellie's Castle

Does this looks like a bear? It's a bear.





This is a underground tunnel that is connected to the Hindu temple nearby.




This is the rooftop.REally high dude. And there is no fences to protect you. So if u fall,Bye bye.



Corridor is in the mystery??.. Must come n see by yourself.





The picture taken from the top. Not bad. Dirty.





There are two parts in this Kellie's Castle. The second part is tumbling down due to world war 2.





The part is almost destroyed.What is left are walls.





The ancient door looks weird and creepy.Scared...







The starting picture. It's not that big actually.





Not bad. quite nice. Boring still.